Allegory of a 22 year old Femme Fatale

Another year has come full circle for me in my Piscean orbit. Today I turned 22, leading me further into this insane thing called "adulthood"; I've decided not to comply mentally, physically, or even legally.

I think its a good decision.

I never wanted to be older than 17 but this thing called "time" surely forces us all along its coils, so unfortunately my decision will be a purely empty one, ptth.

I'm far from morose though because of all the free drinks, cake, well wishes, food, and gifts I receive so I guess submitting to mortality isn't that bad...

Happy Birthday to me!

2010 Blog Re-design!

In the long life of a blog, there comes a moment when its writer looks at it and thinks "Wow, this design has been up forever." and decides, with a burning desire, to change it completely. Here it is, How do you like it?

This time is no different.

After going through some of my archives I realized that the old, modern, pastel design has been up for nearly a year and a half, now in the life of most blogs (that last a few months) that seems sooo long. I have been writing, publishing, photographing, diddling, and networking for this blog for four years! Now is a time for risky celebration.

I loved the old design:

...but change is always good. So here's to the new design, dark, flirty, pink, and with a lovely picture of my be-fishnetted bottom!

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It's a Dog's Life

I've been so busy lately, I've been reduced to letting my dog take over the writing helm, oh how life gets away with us:
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So I'm Lala, I'm a two year old miniature Pomeranian and I belong to La Petite Devergondee. You may know her, she's a very naughty girl (as if you didn't already catch on to that).

Life in our apartment is unpredictable and aside from the daily staples of walking, eating, hanging out, walking again, going into my crate, walking one more time, eating again and going to sleep in my mom's big bed, all the in-between time can be a gamble of consequence.

For instance, we went to our neighbor Ninja's house a few days ago and instead of sitting around while they play chess, face each other off in Call of Duty or watch an old movie, while I hang out with his dog, I had to endure laying on the floor at our place while they made noises up on the big bed in the dark. Telling from the noises, I'd day that they were pretty happy.

You never know with my mom, she seems fond of having men in her bed in the dark so they can make noises and then go to sleep...thankfully I still get to sleep up there after wards too. It was my bed first, after all.

Today she was talking to me and told me that after four months, she thought it may be a mistake to start something physical with the hot, esoteric, martial arts guy a few doors down (Ninja), she said she didn't care. I guess he made some noises she liked or something.

As for me, she can make all the noises she likes...as long as I get to sleep in the big bed.

Alive, Well & Busy

I am alive, I am still up to my old ways and yes, I will keep my eye on my blog until I have time to post new content which will hopefully be soon, but take a peek in at my life at the moment...

 

Proof that all is well in la petite Land. :)

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The run-down on my life is this: I'm moving in two weeks, Im switching schools and majors, transferring in my job, working full time, volunteering part time & keeping my family tied precariously together all at once. Did I mention I'm in a beautiful new relationship? More on that later.

In all of this I am so full of joy and light though that the struggles seem small compared to all the possibility and fulfillment that will stem from it all. I miss my blog, I miss my reviews and I miss my readers (and reading all my fav blogs too!) but never fear, super-chick will soon be back and I assure you that it will all be very worth it in the end.

Kisses xoxo.

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Pardon Our Dust!

I made a serious decision earlier today; I would finally update this blog to the new, modern blogger interface and give it some glamour:

Yes, I know that its been a long time coming but I liked handling things manually...until now. So this is the last re-design in a long time and Id love to know what you think about it. Check out the poll in the sidebar.

As a reminder, here is a screenshot of the old design:

A few updated functions include less clutter, nicer modern flow and also Snap Shots which gives you a cool mini preview of any link on the site. If you don't want to use the Snap Shots widget, run your pointer over a Snap Shot bubble and opt out with the button in the top right hand corner of the Shot screen.

 Thanks to DaPino for the awesome basis vector image for the banner, its gorgeous.

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Gone, Gadget, Gone

So once and for all, Gadget is gone and I find myself single once again and shockingly, my world hasn't fallen apart in fact, I feel free and liberated. Life is mine alone again.

Warning: doctored stock photo
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After two years and two almost-break ups, Gadget and I are over due to me dropping a box of his belongings on my lawn and calling him to tell him he better pick it up. It was the nice thing to do on my part though, as it seemed like any minute it would be raining. Aren't I a doll?

It really wasn't all that dramatic, but it did happen. He picked up his box on the grass and dropped his key to my place in my mailbox. I was crying in the shower at the time but since, I haven't cried a drop and its only been three days. I know it's easy for me now because I've known for a long time that he wasn't what I wanted and it took some willpower to kick me into action and also a choice opinion from him to change my mind about him completely.

Don't you just hate when you learn something about someone you thought you knew down to their bones and it completely changes your opinion of them? Well, that happened along with all of the other mounting pressures from within.

I feel like I'm in a good place and that all this love lies ahead of me, not only with other people, but with myself and my future. I'm thinking about getting a job at a big newspaper, thinking about moving and thinking seriously about my sexuality.

Like before, am I or aren't I? Who knows but I have all this time to figure it out.

I'm sort of sickened that I'm so comfortable and not a mess after ending a two year relationship, shouldn't I feel more? All I can think of is how great it is that I'm single. It feels like flying.

I am sad for the end of it and he was a great love of mine who I'll never forget for as long as I live but his time was over and I feel it's a good thing, a very good thing.

After all, you don't need other people kicking you down who say they love you. This end is a new beginning.

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Camping Kitty

This week was the perfect time to go out into the wilderness and pop a tent, spark a fire and run bikinied through the forest; so we went camping. :)

It was so fun, and I have to say despite my frou-frou girliness, I am such a lover of nature and of camping, I could have stayed out there all week.

Even in the "wilderness" I'm wearing pearls and painted pink fingernails. haha.
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Happy Summer!

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Good-Bye, Gadget (?)

Just shy of two years, it looks like its the end of my relationship with Gadget.

It's all come down to this because of myriad of reasons and honestly, it shouldn't have drug on this long with so many problems going unresolved.

Gadget and I in bed in the good times.
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I think it all came down to being annoyed, agitated, and belittled far too much and on a far too recurrent basis. Gadget is one of those people who have come from nearly abject poverty and have built themselves up from it into a productive member of society.

He follows the status quo far too closely and pushes and heaves at everyone to do to the same...even if they have not asked for such assistance. In a word, he believes that no one is ever good enough and should always be pushing at their individual glass-ceilings. That works for some people but thats just not me.

Gadget is going to be 27 this summer and maybe he feels as if he has not got much time left to prove himself a man in the world. As for myself, Im a 20 year old college student/writer/waitress who is just in the beginning of her wave of adulthood and just wants to have fun, have a few lazy days between her break-neck work days and try to find who she is.

He likes to push me and make me out to have more problems than I do; maybe it makes him feel better about himself if he has someone he can look down upon.

My best friend (a gay male) (I only drop the fact that he's gay to let you all know he's not after me and therefore not giving me bum advice to get me single again) has told me that perhaps Gadget feels inferior to me and therefore has to build himself up and belittle me, all at the same time to make himself feel worthy, and especially not below me, in status and mind power. I feel theres a grain of truth in this.

I have grown to hate the way he acts, the way he deals with problems and how he never feels enough is enough. I feel like he doesn't make enough time for me and when I encounter problems his only advice is to "just let it go". I wish it wasn't so though, because even for all his misgivings, he's a good man who I know only has everyone's best interests at heart but who needs to be much more empathetic, less judgmental and above all, more understanding of the flawed nature of man.


Update: 3 days later and I'm still waiting for the pain and the tears...where are they? Will they ever come? I suppose its just as well to leave something without childish emotion following me. Would it be better though?

Update: A week later: Is this the right thing? Is loneliness worth it? Should the negatives override all of the positives? I'm just so torn.

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Out of the Teens

This morning at 9 am I turned 20 years old and have had to wave goodbye to my teens.

Relaxation.
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I feel a dueling set of emotions right now as I've never been one of those teens that always wanted to grow up. I feel that in many ways my life is just beginning and so many things are ahead of me and yet I can't help but feel a little nostalgia for all the memories my teens hold.

Goodbye teen aged coquette, hello twenty-something seductress.

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Nobel Peace Prize?

If Al Gore thinks he deserves the Nobel Peace Prize, he can kiss my environmentalist ass



I mean well, where to start....never mind, if I get started now, I'll never stop. At least its a shared one.....

BTW: I know some of you will want to have words at me, but feel free. :)

Have a good weekend and stay tuned for next week's steamy post and a brand new photo!

(Sorry for leaving the last one two weeks running as featured post, but I just loved it so much!)

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Sugasm #99

Since Sugasm started its whole "let's have featured articles and not just in categories" thing, I'd begun to feel very left out from never being chosen.

All that has been changed when I found out I had been chosen as Editor's Choice for my "Letter to a Lover" prose piece. I'm ecstatic!

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This Week’s Picks
Don’t think..
“As you read this, you reach for your cock and stroke it slowly, in anticipation of our eventual meeting.”

I’ll be out in 2 mins, I’m just brushing my teeth…
“One centimetre at a time, he slid oh so slowly into me and then retreated out again.”

We all have Secrets
“I’ll give you a little reminder - it was when he and his wife were making me cum so hard that I blacked out.”

Mr. Sugasm Himself
Iris Bahr’s Festive World

Editor’s Choice
Letter to a Lover



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You Want to Sex Me, No?

I realized that it has been since June since I hit up my world of escape and tried to will my passions into word form here for all to read. I know I've said it before, but...I'm back.

I know that some of you have seemingly given up on me but I'm super pumped and filled with fuel to add to the fire of my writing. So what better medium than the safety(?) of my favorite blog space, "Allegory"?

It sometimes gets to me that since I put my life and choices out there for the world to see that Im constantly judged and seemingly used for my writing and the escape it can give those who read it. It becomes a personal endeavor when someones else takes in what your life is and feels a connection to you, they feel a safety in judging and using you up.

I think I needed a little break to clear my head and try to understand what exactly it was that pulled me to sex-blogging in the first place: the fact that I think my experiences are interesting and that typing them all out in the detail my memory holds is therapeutic and helps me not only move on an grow up but also come to terms with the person Ive become.

I know it sounds as if I speak as though my experiences were miles and decades behind me, but its really that I see them as stepping stones to the girl I am today. Its interesting to think that I'm still growing up and see it all from that perspective.

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Ill start my first entry since deciding to come back by answering questions and concerns I received since my drop out:

> Gadget wouldn't be such a problem ... if he and you were more open to 3somes and moresomes. Surprised you haven't had such experiences ... never mind not sharing them.

A: Heres the thing with that (and sorry you think Gadget to be a problem, lol) , the fact that you think I havnt been envolved in threesomes or "moresomes" is just that I havnt written about them....yet. I have had several of these kind of experiences and actually have written about a "moresome" that envolved several other girls a while back. I understand that people are really looking for extremes in sex and sex writing but whereas some writers and websites go for shock value my aim is to just express myself the way I want and the way I see fit to make a semblance of my life in writing. You want more of something? Email me!

> Why do you seem to drop out for a while and ignore us?

A: Its most definatly not intentional and I really love writing and getting responses from readers and communicating my sexual self and getting imput but sometimes my life just catches up with me and I just have to prioritize and most things come before dedicating an hour or two to writing out a memoir. An "A" in my physics class is more important to me than to see how many times I can find a replacement noun for the word "cock". I love my writing and I love my sexual self but life is just so unpredictable. I promise that I do try though.

> You're a pervert.

A: Thank you.

> Whats up with the partially naked pictures and cropped stuff?

A: Theres a really fun answer to that. "A person is only the sum of her parts." In all actuality, I really love to use my camera to capture a mood and a shape to my body that sometimes cant be garnered with a full shot. The way the photos come to be is that I take a full shot and crop it down to my favorite part(s) of it. Though not only is sort of a fun way to use my creativity is also another form of anonymity and a way to be aloof. Why, don't you like a little tease?

> You talk about Gadget like he's a god or something, whats the angle for that?

A: Ive been asked about this a lot and theres no real complete answer for it. When I write about my more amorous activities I really love to pull all the positivity from them and try to show my angle as a happy, vivacious and sexually vigorous chick is interested about love, sex and satisfaction. Why wouldn't a speak positively of a partner who is sexually satisfying and who is dedicated to my happiness and my needs? I don't regard Gadget as a God but as a really interesting and fulfilling partner who I can trust to always be interested in mine and my body's pleasure.

> Why should I read your words?

A: Its not as if I think I need to convince someone to read my writing or be interested, it should really just speak for itself. I feel the draw of my writing is its frankness and imagery and though sometimes somewhat savage on sexual detail, I feel like my writing can be a sexy escape for just about anyone interested in the sexuality of an amorous young female.

> I know you think you're a healthy person, but I think you're severely wounded.

A: Thats a very deep summation for someone to make having never really met or known me. I do think that life has handed me some hard situations but I feel like Ive tried to make the best of them and to build myself up as a coherent and inner mindful being. I have been hurt and I still bare scars but I feel like one must work through hurt in order to gain transcendence and understanding. Also, if you're attributing my sexual hunger to be some sort of unhealthy illness or affliction, I consider you to be severely ill informed.

> I love reading your writing and imagining that such an interesting person really exists.

A: Im was so supremely flattered by this compliment and I really didn't known how to react at first but to the author, I just hope you know that your comment was supremely appreciated! Big kiss!

> This blog is dead.

A: NO IT ISNT! :)

Stay tuned for a new post coming up soon on the delights of sexy phone calls in the middle of tghe night. Big kiss guys, Im so glad to be working on more content for the blog!

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My Return from Mexico

Finally your favorite adventuress is home from tackling huge pyramids, swimming in waterfalls and jumping from cliffs into lakes to write more smut and post more nearly nude photos. Are you happy?

Swimming in teal waters of the El Chiflon cascades, Yucatan Peninsula, Mexico.
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Heres a photo from my travels to whet your appetite for upcoming posts and chronicles of my adventures both abroad and in my bed.

I came home to find a huge outcry of over 200 emails, 12 distressed comments and a head full of worries that you guys just dont know how to read.....I did post that I was leaving. Im sorry to all of my worrying little sex fiends, but Im well and good, very tan and still as nymphy as ever. And yes, Gadget is still very much cemented in the picture, surely to much dismay of my more agressive admirers. :)

Oh how Ive missed my naughty, naughty life.

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100,000+ Posts!!!!

Such a celebration, really it seems to is in order because -

My lovely fun memoir blog "Allegory of an Underage Femme Fatale" has hit well over 100, 000 ORIGINAL HITS!

Yay!

Do you think I live for you? Do you think my hand slips over my skin for you? Maybe...
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I got a great email from a publishing house which wants to publish nearly all of my memoirs into ITS OWN BOOK! God knows if it will go through, but Yay Hay for such a notable message.

Happy 100,000 to you all!

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Happy Valentine's Day!

Happy Valentine's Day from me and my bear...and maybe my red thong too!

A story will follow shortly describing my Hearts Day - Gadget has a HUGE surprise for me...and I think it has something to do with the HUGE thing in his pants. Yay for Valentine's Day!

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A Sleepless Night

Im so sleepless and here cuddling with my bear and just scanning the web, when I had a marvelous idea: Try to make myself come as many times as I can with my little red vibe.

So far the count is three in ten minutes (I have to let myself calm all the way down before trying again). And this is interesting: A song started in iTunes when I started attempt #3 and I caught the time that had gone by when I reached orgasm - 1:25. Surely not a record for me, but an interesting tidbit.

I also sent a text to Gadget (though yes, its 4:30 am) because I just had to share. Though you know me, Im a big one to share. It consisted of this:

I just came while thinking of you. I know its super late but I thought you'd like to know.

Now what sane man would be upset by being awoken by a text of that species?

Ill keep you updated as the night progresses. Lucky you, Im sure.

@4:53 am: Ive just accomplished #4 and very proud, but now sleepy. Ouchie, poor little clit.

@5:07 am: Well #5 has just come to fruition....sorry for the pun. Fuck, this is akin to running like 2 miles. Woo. I think its time to settle in and try to sleep. Hah, as if.

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Happy New Year!

Though a few days delayed...Happy New Year!

Life has been smooth lately and with a three week break from classes, I was stylin and relaxing. Monday though, starts a whole new semester of classes for me and time management is definately my biggest hurtle this year and the last.

I have so many sultry stories saved up in my little mind, but where to find the time? If youre new to my blog, just know this, a full time college student who is also a full time newspaper layout editor and writer really has no time left for anything but a few meals a day and a few bouts of incredible sex a week. But then again, having the incredible sex is what makes it all worth while.

I promise that this year I will keep the blog rolling at least once a week, if not twice and of course, the photos will always be rolling.

Never stop believing in me! I miss you all, thanks so much for all the nice holiday emails and new years ones as well. Youre all so dedicated! Big Kisses!

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Lay List

The following is an ever-updating cast of the characters mentioned in my memoirs, stories and photo montages. They're not actually characters in the literary sense of the word but if my life were a storybook, these would be my fellow characters.Some are called by their real names here and others have been gifted with nicknames, pseudonyms if you will.

Some are listed but are not currently written into the allegory, but they soon will be...

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• La petite aka "Femme Fatale", "Devergondee", "Miss C", "The Girl", "Slut" - Myself, writer, student, a true exotic, bi-sexual fuck bunny, young woman, sexual submissive and all around twisted "girl next door".

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• Kangaroo - My submissive and current girlfriend. Mentioned: "Blood, Tits, & Gore."
• Horns - Ex-live in-boyfriend ('08-'09). Mentioned: "New Year. Same Life. Still Happy."
• Gadget - Ex-Boyfriend (June 06'-June 08') and complete corporate monkey. Mentioned: All over.
• Thomas - Pre-18 lover and current close friend. Yet to be written about.
• Trigger aka "Garcon Virgin" - Yet another claimed virgin. Mentioned: "Garcon Virgin"/"Night Ride"
• James - Ex boyfriend/the owner of my virginity, and I of his. Mentioned: "Virginal Cherry"
• Master Mika - Former BDSM Master('05-06'). Mentioned: "Submissive Little Darling"
• Brad - Dear friend, Yet another virgin claimed. Mentioned: "Oh, Brad."

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• Stiletto - A hot one time lady lover of mine. Yet to be mentioned.
• Liverpool Johnny - A John. Yet to be mentioned.
• Hot Shot - Former BDSM Sir and total sociopathic abuser. Yet to be mentioned.
• Method - Former BDSM play-mate Sir. Mentioned: "Give Me My Sin Again."
• Mantis aka "Pool Boy" - Ex-lover. Mentioned: "A Trashy Reminder."
• Ninja - Friend/Former Lay. Mentioned: "It's a Dog's Life."
• Dillon - Ex-lover, fellow cheater. Mentioned: "Oh Dirty Girl"/"He Wants to Cheat..."
  
• Madeleine - Fellow orgy-attendant, fem lover. Mentioned: "When Girls Actually Like Girls"
• Piston - Madeleine's other half, one-time lover. Yet to be written.
• Italy - Ex lover, messer of minds. Yet to be written.
  
• Chord - Masculine half of a couple, Go-go's boy. Yet to be mentioned.
  
• Go-Go - Femme half of a couple.. Mentioned: The Monday Buzz: KamaSutra.
• Sands - Long time friend and almost-lover. Yet to be mentioned.
  
• Libra - Femme fling. Mentioned: "Kissing Her Lips"
• Aaden - New York New Year's Eve '08 lover/fling/one night stand. Mentioned: "My New York Indiscretion Parts 1 & 2"
• Lita - Former female BDSM player. Yet to be written about.
  
• Joshua - Former BDSM player. Yet to be written about.
  
• Sarah - Ex Sapphic lover. Yet to be written about.
  
• Jilla - Friend and Ex sapphic lover. Yet to be written about.
  
• Chase - A very hung, pre-18 lover, Yet to be written about.
  
• Damon - My lascivious Tango instructor. Mentioned:"The Desperate Tango"
  
• Robbie - My family's former handyman. Mentioned: "The Bikini and the Handyman"
  
• Anon. Dominant - A Dom I picked out of a crowd. Mentioned: "Caught: Domination"
  
• Three English Lesbians - 2 WORDS: Lesbian Orgy. Mentioned: "More Varied & Active"
  
• A dear male friend - He wanted me, but didnt have me. Mentioned: "More Varied & Active"
  
• A male family friend - He saw me undressing, naughty. Mentioned: "More Varied & Active"
  
• An exboyfriend's girlfriend - She bent both ways. Mentioned: "More Varied & Active"
  
• Davie - Former fuckbuddy friend fucker, Yeah. Mentioned: "He Wasn't Mine"
  
• Jill - Childhood friend fuckbuddy fucker, Yeah. Mentioned: "He Wasn't Mine"
  
• Fucktoy - Fellow sex blogger and bdsm slave.
  
• Spring Break Boy - He ate me out. Yeah, thats it. Mentioned: "Friday Night Teaser"
  
• Ellie - Friend and former sapphic lover. Mentioned: "Kiss of Rose Pt. 1 & 2"
  
• Greg - Another claimed virgin of mine and old friend. Mentioned: "Convertible Kitten"
  
• Val - Russian Artist and former summer lover. Mentioned: "Artist's Muse"
  
• "D" - First ass experience. See: "Davie" ^. Mentioned: "Booty Call"
  
• Bray - Former boss and former mind fuck. Mentioned: "Through the Looking Glass"
  
• Milo - Old friend and lover of all things sexy and bloody. Mentioned: "He Liked the Darkside"
  
• Kyle - ExLover and desirous of the female orgasm. Mentioned: "Why Don't You Come When I Fuck You?"
  
• Sam - Church friend and lover of daddy/lil girl play. Mentioned: "Ill Be Your Baby"
  
• Dana aka "Bones" - Musician, BDSM fiend and ExLover. Mentioned: "He Liked to Lick"

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Yet Another ComeBack

Hello lovelies,

Since finals week is winding down, I now have time to finish my pantyhose memoir, maybe this weekend.

And PS - The pantyhose pictured werent just snagged, they were snagged with a purpose...youll soon understand. :)